Hi everyone. I'd just like to say, today's been a really tough day for me. I know I haven't written in a long time but I'd really appreciate all the support I can get. It's been an emotional roller coaster today. Such high highs, and such low lows. I've been putting a lot of effort for the past few months into making a very special something happen during my college's Psychology Week. (For those of you who don't know, I'm Psychology & Psi Beta Club's Publicity Officer & Events Coordinator at my college.) I won't spoil the surprise for now but after so much work and effort, I was able to gain every vote to grant us (Psychology Club) the $3000 to make this event possible. It was SUCH exciting news. Shortly after being incredibly pumped up and excited, I received the news that my very close friend is being hospitalized today for her bipolar disorder. I've been emotionally disturbed in a series of mental chaos. To add to this, I have a variety of serious personal problems going on too. A day that was supposed to be all good, filled with so much excitement, celebration, and happiness spiraled into a mess of confusion and intense emotions I don't know how to handle at the moment. I know I failed my very important math test today, there's no doubt in that. It all felt like hieroglyphs to me and I got a really bad grade on the homework I attempted to finish today. I came home really late only to find out that one of the people who came to one of the events on drug abuse I put together during my college's Mental Health Awareness Week who was proudly sharing how long he'd been clean for died today of a heroine overdose. I feel really broken and helpless right now. A lot of it is confusion with my feelings. I'm scared, hurt, sad, frustrated, overwhelmed, depressed, anxious, nervous, stressed, tired, exhausted, excited, you name it. Yesterday, my friend was telling me how much she loved my art and that she wanted to buy one from me one day. I'm sending her a letter with a friend who will be visiting her on Saturday while I'm at work. Her birthday is March 7th. She desperately did not want to spend it in a mental hospital. I'm going to make her a really heartfelt photomanipulation and get it printed really big and send it to her on her birthday. I'm making her a mix tape and I'm going to do something really special for her. She is now an even bigger motivation for me to make the event at my college amazing. Just as she deserves.
As for other things that have gone on, I'm very honored and humbled to have been sought after to be offered several different positions in my college's ASG, something that is usually quite difficult to get into including applications and interview processes. I'm highly considering one of the positions. I'm just already so busy and have so many responsibilities and am so stressed out, I really don't know if I can handle another post. We'll see. This semester, I'm taking the horrible, dreaded math, Speech -Persuasion, Speech -Interpersonal Communications, and Piano
3 of my teachers are amazing. (guess who didn't cut the amazing list). I'm very fortunate this semester in many ways but at the same time it's a very difficult, stressful, and trying one for me with so many different challenges.
Oh also, an update, I got to meet every member of Blue October.
It was an amazing experience. I gave them my gift and letter. I talked to them, Jeremy complimented me on singing every single word at the right timing during his sound check at the meet & greet that was all instrumental and Justin asked me if I could be the first out of the ten he'd be choosing to interview for their upcoming documentary. I of course agreed and felt so honored and privileged to be given that opportunity. I got a picture with them and their autographs. It was an amazing night.
I would love to hear back from you all just to see how you're doing.
I miss you all here on dA. It's been a while....